He did not hold on to me.

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I thought he was the one. I thought I have tried my best to make him like me. But I was wrong.

He has been careful. He has been defensive. Maybe he just didn't want to be hurt like in the past relationships. But with that, he lost me along the way.

I started to doubt his feelings for me. I thought it wasn't genuine. I was careful not to let him hurt me. But he has done so. He hurt me for not doing anything. He hurt me for not holding on to me. He hurt me for letting me go.

It was my bad. I was not careful. I let myself fall too quick. I allowed myself to trust this man. He hasn't done me wrong. It's just... ... it's just that he has forgotten to include me into his life. He said he was used to sleeping alone. He said he was used to not having someone. Maybe...

All I want from him was him to include me into his life. All I want was a space in his place. All I want was to be part of his dreams. All I want to be was his special someone. Am I wishing for too much? Am I just digging a hole of sorrow to fill my tears? Should I continue to be that silly girl that prays he would just stop on his path, turn and look at me and hold my hand? Maybe I should just hold on to his and never let go.